Indeed, we as women, should have an instinctive way of knowing. The absolute sense that when you feeling not quite yourself...somethings happening!!
Not expecting the unexpected is what usually blind sights, You think you know - until reality swots you.
Since the last time i actually had the guts to put something down, I was still coming to terms with the little kidney bean, now progressing faster and faster into a miniature little human with fingerprints and all. Me...whoa!!! really..noooooooo.....it's fake... until you hear the little heartbeat, at the very first sonar, and your eyes well up with tears and you can't believe that that is going to be a future family member, you're going to throw birthday parties for, you're going to want to strangle at sometime, but that you will grow to love more than life.
In this whole expanse called the world, called the universe.....you now know, why God wanted woman to carry his future soldiers.... in love and nurturing they see Gods heart. And understand compassion, the compassion that surpasses any understanding of anything less than civilized.
Though - the nausea, the aches and pains the moodswings including depression hang like a weight around your neck..in the end that weight turns to a medal, it's the perseverance and love of others that counts as well. You tend to take a look, and see others have made it.. you can too....
The emotional side....well, hormones are great to blame.....and sorry, it doesn't matter how gentle spirited you are....the best turns into the most ferocious...and for my behaviour...i apologise in advance already...my husband, thank you for being long-suffering..
Remember come bearing food - and all is forgiven ;).
One thing that I've learned to really appreciate is the countless efforts of love, comments and little remedies that I've come to hear from plenty of people. And for them I am thankful.
Here's to all my predecessors....
You conquered and you help.
Thank you
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